How many of you interpret vulnerability as a weakness?
Over the years I have been called many names. Nice girl, good girl, too patient, too kind. Now at twenty-three, I understand that people have truly mistaken my kindness for my weakness. My natural ability to be vulnerable has actually become my new found strength; I continuously allow myself to be seen, however, in my culture and environment, people can automatically take my vulnerability as my weakness.
Let me explain what I mean by “ to be seen”…
When dealing with relationships or creating work, I do not disguise my emotions. More often than not I am willing to do something without guarantees. Investing time + energy without knowing the outcome can be frightening. In the same breath, that is why vulnerability is a necessity for me. I can say I love you first, expose personal experiences through my work, and stand firmly on my decisions. How, do you ask? Vulnerability is my courage. Everyday I continue to take strides deeper into my emotions, it reminds me that I am awake and alive.
Brene Brown said it best, “You can’t numb those hard feelings without numbing the other affects, our emotions. You cannot selectively. When we numb those we numb joy, we numb gratitude, we numb happiness.”
For those reasons, I will always remain transparent. My dance may be a little different due to trial and error, but that’ll never change my daring ability to be deeply be seen.